你不喜欢甜言蜜语，只喜欢真心话，可是我要怎样才能让你了解我所对你说的话都是我的真心话。

最近，我似乎一直都在想着你， 难道这就是思念的感觉吗？这算是爱情吗？还是这只是我的一厢情愿，自作多情？

我有好多话想要对你说，可是当我想要说的时候，脑子突然就空白了。想要说的话，就这样一直都说不出来。

也许是我不敢说出来，因为我害怕，我怕我又会再次受到伤害。我害怕，我说出来以后，我们的关系就不能像现在这样好了。我害怕 。。。

到底我应不应该踏出第一步?

苦中有甜，甜中有苦

苦苦甜甜，甜甜苦苦

也许生活有一点苦，衷心送上一点甜

收到你的一点甜，生活再苦又如何？

寂寞和孤单， 就是我的感觉。我在朋友的网站读到她写了一些感想, 我也很认同。

虽然过去曾经拥有 ，
但是都没有被重视过..
没有好好的约会过..
没有好好的被爱过..
似乎好像有背叛的感觉..
没有勇气再次去爱了..

最后..
会不会孤独到老呢？

昨 天真的非常的不顺，本来约了朋友吃晚餐，结果工作到九点才能走。临走之前，我的电脑又坏掉，还以为我得留下来弄好才能走，幸好不用。可是当我去到和朋友约 会的地方时，他们都已经吃饱了，结果到了一家咖啡厅喝杯茶就走了，真的过意不去。每次，我不是放飞机，就是迟到。看来真的得改变自己。

有时真的痛恨自己，因为我说就天下无敌，作就有心无力。我讨厌我这种软弱的个性, 我讨厌自己不守信用的个性。我真的很想改掉这个坏习惯，我必须改变！

想到了第一次见到你
你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到自己偷偷的想靠近你

这是爱情还是你太美丽
让我作出不可思议的事情
我什么都愿意 只要能够靠近你

我知道你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我 才静静守着你
每一次看他紧紧拉着你的手我眼泪不停的流
也只好默默退后
什么都没说
静静的忍住痛

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
因为我只想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过
但我只能为你这么做

Today damm sad! i went to cut my hair, that this farking barber just concentrate to tok to his fren doesn't really concentrating cutting my hair, in the end, he spoilt the whole hairstyle, he cut till damm short, which is not i really like it, but what to do?

can't expect him to grow my hair back! Arghh ... i feel like $%^$&^%$*$ him man! damm piss off, don know how long its going to take to grow back my hair!!

I HATE IT! It's been a bad period of time for me, i have been very struggling lately, i think i really need to go pray la!

I almost forget that i still have a blog exist! haha, nvm at least now i still know how to come and update a blog. Finally i found a job and start to work le, however the work scope is quite bad, have to do everything basically, no choice, no experience so have to learn and do everything. Somemore the environment is not that good, i have to work alone, sianz, this means no ppl to tok too, which i find it very suffering, haha.

Let's not tok about work yet, been trying to find frens out lately, but don know why, just can't seem to able to find them, kanna put aeroplane even though we already arrange to meet up, sianz! Than end up online the whole day on SAT, waaaaaaa, really waste my weekend just like that, lucky i still got J'sue to chat wif mi, if not i confirm will go crazy!

Tml got to work again, sianz! how come work day seem so long, rest day seem so fast! arghh... i need more rest, i need break!! Talking about break, got a friend so enjoy lor, she go oversea so much this year, hai~ i also wan ... but got to wait till she is free, which is i think next yr. Cos this year end i suppose she got project work need to rush, nvm, will wait till her free than we arrange =)